How it Feels Like Being Lost Again

For the longest time, I thought I’m way past behind my insecurities in life goals. I left my first job because I thought, it’s making me hate myself for being stuck there when in fact, I was at the floor of my “dream job.” Now, I am here in the same field but in a different perspective which I didn’t expect I’d be in because number one, news is not my thing. I don’t care what or who I am in the company. I felt secure. I felt contented. I felt happy. I felt sure.

 

And as I am typing this, this is the first time in few months that I felt lost again. Being left out. Not with the people I am with now, but with life itself. Because of that one post I saw, it reminded me of how it feels like to be lost and down again. It feels like there’s a huge baggage at your back trying to push you down whenever you attempt to lift it up.

 

I realized, the thing about achievements is being self-fulfilled and contented with what you did, do and will do even if you think others are getting ahead of you; way faster than you do. I told myself: “know this, no matter how long it took you to get that dream, the most important thing is that you will get there.”

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What Miss Universe 2015, Pia Wurtzbach, Taught Me

After more than four decades of waiting, the Philippines has come to reach its most coveted victory in the Universe. It’s been a week already since Pia Wurtzbach was crowned as the Miss Universe 2015 yet, most of us are still not over with it.

It took her three attempts to bring home the crown that every beauty queen is aspiring for. From her first try to join the Binibining Pilipinas in 2013, she ended up as the first runner up while on her second try in 2014, she went home with nothing. But this year, Pia proved that third time’s a charm because she bagged the title Binibining Pilipinas-Universe. Meaning, she will represent the country in the most prestigious beauty pageant in the universe.

Knowing her story, I realized something. Successful people are the ones who know what they want and do something about it. For Pia, she wanted the crown so bad that it didn’t stop her to chase her ultimate dream. Look at where she is now, the elusive crown is on her already. Because of her good example, she has inspired many people. And I have to admit that, I am, too. With her journey to victory, she taught me some things:

1. Never settle for something good. Go for the better. The best, rather. I’ve always believed in this and keep on telling to the people who think that I dream too big: Mangangarap ka na lang din naman, bakit hindi mo pa taasan? I don’t see the point of success if you’re out there with the “good” when you know you can have better.
2. It’s okay to fail sometimes. And I mean it. Everybody fails, though some are afraid to admit it. Failure is inevitable and there’s nothing you can do to change that except to embrace it. Some people lose hope and become unmotivated when failure blocks them. But guess what, the more you fail, the stronger you get. Don’t fret if you’ve failed many times already because it just makes success that much sweeter. To succeed after multiple failure is one of the best feelings in the world. You’ll feel a great sense of satisfaction because you know that everything you went through was all worth it.
3. Don’t ever stop, because the moment you stop trying, that’s the moment you failed. There’s nothing wrong with trying and trying and trying all over again. Your road to success will not be easy as one, two, three and it will never be. So what if they tell you that you’re trying hard? Let them and be it. Try hard because you want it so bad. At the end of the day, everything you’ve worked for will pay off.
4. Be confidently beautiful with a heart. Show the world what you can do. Be proud but not arrogant. Just like Pia, being confidently beautiful with a heart will win you so many things and your dream is part of it.
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14Four Cafe

It’s been so long that I wanted to visit this place after I watched it on TV. Those sumptuous meals shown made me crave for this. And finally, I got to visit 14Four Cafe. At last! Actually, I’ve been here two times already. The first time was when I’m with my boyfriend and the second was when I’m with my boyfriend (again), his mom, my mom, our mom’s friend, and my sister.

14 Four Tapa

This is one of their best-sellersI love how it tastes but one thing I dealt was, it’s hard to chew, not like other tapas.
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Country Fried Chicken

I’ve never tasted chicken like this before. It’s soooo good!

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Aligue and Tuyo Pasta

This is one of the dishes I wanted to try since I read many reviews that this is good. Well, to be honest, I didn’t like the pasta. (please don’t get mad at me 14Four Cafe) maybe it’s not just my type. I’m not a seafood lover. I guess I didn’t get what I expected. But my boyfriend loves it!
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Sesame Crusted Dory

If only I had the chance not to try it, I wouldn’t. I really didn’t like this. But like what I said, I’m not a fan of seafood so it’s really not my taste. And I don’t like cucumber, maybe that’s why I didn’t eat it lol. Although, my mom and her friends loved it.

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Cinnamon Bun Pancakes

Time for dessert! And yes, I loved it!
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Amaretto French Toast

Oh m gee! This has got to be my favorite of all! I love it to bits! Enough said

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And the first thing and main reason I fell in love with the café is the place itself! It’s like a hidden paradise perfect for a getaway. I’ll definitely go back here.

Why would you date that person?

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Why would you date someone if you don’t have any plans on marrying that person?

What?! For fun? To forget the person who broke your heart? Or just for the sake of having a boyfriend/girlfriend? Well, if your answer either lies on the choices stated there or not, that’s opposite to marriage, then you’re just making yourself look like a fool. Why did I say that? Because it’s simply a waste of time.

You might think that I’m too harsh for saying that or I don’t have any rights to do so but, that is just my opinion. I just want to express how I feel about this matter so please don’t blame me if I’m against dating without serious intentions.

Being in a relationship is not a joke. It requires two persons who feel the same way with each other and are committed to one another. Relationship is not about fame. It’s not about the status. It’s not about running out of time or for using someone to seal the holes of your damaged heart. And most importantly, it’s not for fun!

Relationship is about commitments. It has to work for good, and by for good, it means forever. Even if forever seems impossible and unbelievable for some, still you have to. It requires marriage because it’s the best way to put God at the center of your relationship. When God is there, everything will seem perfect. So why would you marry your partner? Marry that person because you love him/her. Marry that person because he/she loves you. Marry a person you feel comfortable contented with. Marry that person because he/she is worthy of your lifetime commitment.

Relationship is about love. It’s about the story of two persons that give each other butterflies in their stomachs every time they meet like their first time. It’s about accepting what the other party have or doesn’t have. It’s about a couple who are willing to commit in each other’s arms ’til their last breaths.

In today’s generation, uso na ang lokohan. Walang seryosohan. I am not saying that all relationships are like that but I’m sure, most of the people, especially the teens today, are in a relationship that has no good intentions. And at the end of the day, they leave their hearts crying a thousand jar of tears.

Relationships should last. That’s how serious it is.

You’re the One I Need

They say, when a man really loves you, he will show it and try hard to prove it to you. I’m right. I feel right with him.

Love, love, love. One word but full of meanings. Four letters but a million feelings.

What more can I ask if the one I love gives all the things I never wished and beyond the things I asked for? It feels so perfect when you’re floating in the air, surrounded by soft fluffy clouds and wishing time will stop when he’s around.

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He’s been my Sun when I’m covered in Rain.

He’s my light when I’m lost in the dark.

I know there’s no such thing as perfect relationship, but with him,

I’m sure I can feel the perfectness in this world.

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To be honest, I don’t want people to give me flowers and chocolates during Valentine’s Day, well, in any occasions rather. I’ve been this kind of person since high school. I think it’s a bit cliché when a girl is holding a bouquet of flowers and chocolates. I can’t imagine myself walking along our University holding a bouquet (well, okay fine, I’ve imagined it once or twice before hahaha). Yes it’s sweet and romantic, but I find it awkward, seriously. I’d rather have a one-stem tulip than a bouquet.

When we’re talking about the people he saw on his way home, holding a bunch of bouquets, I just laughed and told him LOL. So mainstream. And he answered I know right? I just added if you’re planning to give me a bouquet and chocolates, don’t you dare do it on the next Valentine’s. And he just answered okay, next Valentine’s. Little did I know, there’s something going on.

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He surprised me. I thought we’re not going to see each other this Valentine’s Day but here he was, waiting outside our gate, holding a bouquet and chocolates. What did I do? You wouldn’t believe me if I tell you I didn’t open the gate immediately. When I saw him, I was so starstruck. I didn’t know what to do. And of course I laughed. Remembering our conversation before about the flowers. He, too, laughed at it. Hahaha

Remember the time when we saw a guy on the train holding a bouquet and you asked me if I could do that? I just want to prove to you that I can bring a bouquet in public and travel far to give it to you.

That’s one of the sweetest things I heard from him but babe, you don’t have to do that. You don’t have to prove anything because I can feel that you’re sincere. Like what the song says, you will always be the exception. You’re the one I need, not the the things you can give.

If you want to know more of the details of the story. Read it here.IMG_0335 2collage

But my perceptions on bouquets and chocolates changed. It feels good when someone special gives you those things. Nothing can replace the happiness you feel when you’re in love and very much thankful.

My Love

Everything you do is the most perfect thing that has ever been done

Each day with you becomes perfectly done

The warmth of your love could protect me from the harshest winter

Even the sweet kisses you give makes me ask for another

Your inner light could illuminate the darkest night

You shine so bright more than the starlight

I love you, oh dear

Please don’t leave me for real

 

 

Just a quick post for the Valentine’s Day. Some lines are from Yahoo Mail. Happy Valentine’s Day! Keep on spreading love ♥

What’s Happiness?

I’d almost believe that I can be happy all by myself. With no one beside me, I thought that I’m gonna be fine. Well, I can still be happy with just myself but I realized that I could be more and completely happy with other people.

To be honest, I wasn’t excited that day. I don’t know why, maybe because I still had that post-traumatic stress disorder (LOL) I had on my debut last December 12, 2012. HahahaDSC04118 2

My boyfriend and I ate at the Holy Cow! and we ordered Country’s Pride Parmesan Chicken and New York Cheese Cake. Boy it’s so good, definitely a must try.

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Lo and behold… my dream cake! *shrieks* when I saw this cake online, I was like OMG I love it! Super! I want it so bad. But the bakeshop is nowhere to found near our place. Gladly, they opened one at SM Megamall and there my hope is. Hahaha. I was really surprised when I saw him in front of our school’s gate holding a green box, that, I know what it is. I even slapped his arm a million times (okay, I know I’m over-reacting haha. Just several times) because of excitement. I can’t even shut up 😀 though I know I was hesitant to taste it at first because when my Aunt gave us a cake from the same bakeshop, it tastes like… I’ll just leave it for you to guess. Like what they said, do not judge a book by its cover. Still, I gave it a try.He gave it to me that’s why it’s so special and to my surprise (yeah another surprise) it tastes even better.

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1. Beautiful box. When we went to the mall, we passed by a stall full of Hello Kitty products, which means, everything is pink! Hahaha. And then I saw a beautiful box and I said “that box is perfect as a gift already even without something inside”.

2. Notebook. In case you haven’t noticed, I really love to write. Especially when I was little, but now, I don’t see myself writing stuffs even I want to. And he said that if I’m inspired to write something or have ideas that make me want to write, I should put it in that notebook.

3. Our picture. What more should I treasure than this? Enough said.

4. Key chain with my name. It’s kinda odd but the key chain has no story. While he was looking for the bakeshop where my dream cake could be bought, he passed by a stall of key chains that you can personalized and thought of giving me one. He finds it cute.

5. Box of Love quotes. I don’t know what would I feel, happiness or sadness. Why? Because he’s going back to LA, for good. It’s gonna be hard for us because it’s a long distance relationship but even some people don’t believe in LDR, I do. I really do, though it hurts like your heart’s being crushed everyday, as long as there’s love and trust then everything will be fine. He said if he’s in LA already and I miss him so bad, he wants me to read the quotes in the box and imagine that he’s the one saying it.

6. My new instax camera. Like what I’ve said, I wasn’t excited of my birthday. I was not expecting too much. But this is one of the reasons why I am jumping with my ears clapping. Hahaha okay I know it’s too much but that’s how I can express my feelings that time. This is my dream camera, aside from the DSLR of course. I’ve wanted this since I was a kid. And now, I have it on my hands. Thanks to my mom!

7. Headband, ribbon clip, and a sketch of myself. All of these are from my best friend, Ana. It’s so nice and sweet of her to give me these cute stuffs. She really knows what I want. For your information, I really love headbands and ribbons. But what I didn’t expect was the sketch. She showed me her drawings and asked if her drawings looked like the person itself, one of those was her sister and I said “not really” and then I saw this sketch and said “Oh this one looks like more of her” and she said “It’s not her, it’s you!” and I was like “OMG” hahaha. I really felt ashamed of what I said.

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To end this, Here are the pictures taken from my instax camera. My family and my boyfriend ♥

What makes it more special are the people who are willing to spend their time just for you.

Happiness is not about the things we receive from others or the compliments they give us. Happiness is about appreciating every little thing in the world. Those are the little things that we cannot touch but we can hold for a lifetime.