How it Feels Like Being Lost Again

For the longest time, I thought I’m way past behind my insecurities in life goals. I left my first job because I thought, it’s making me hate myself for being stuck there when in fact, I was at the floor of my “dream job.” Now, I am here in the same field but in a different perspective which I didn’t expect I’d be in because number one, news is not my thing. I don’t care what or who I am in the company. I felt secure. I felt contented. I felt happy. I felt sure.

 

And as I am typing this, this is the first time in few months that I felt lost again. Being left out. Not with the people I am with now, but with life itself. Because of that one post I saw, it reminded me of how it feels like to be lost and down again. It feels like there’s a huge baggage at your back trying to push you down whenever you attempt to lift it up.

 

I realized, the thing about achievements is being self-fulfilled and contented with what you did, do and will do even if you think others are getting ahead of you; way faster than you do. I told myself: “know this, no matter how long it took you to get that dream, the most important thing is that you will get there.”

What’s Stopping You?

How could something happen if you don’t do something to make it happen?

The moment you say I can’t, it’s the time you accept the defeat.

I’m sure that you’ve already said those two words before, maybe until now. I assume that you said it because you felt hopeless. Maybe confused. Maybe someone told you so (which is very rude). Or maybe, you felt of uncertainty.

But, should you stop there? Of course not! You are not born not to do things but to create amazing things. You are capable of anything. Even if others (or your inner self) tell you that you can’t, don’t let it rule you. Prove them wrong. Nobody can ever tell you that you can’t do anything. It is you who knows your capability. You just have to believe in yourself that you can do it.

Sometimes, the problem is not with the things or people around us. Sometimes, it’s just us. It’s our inner selves that toxic our minds. We are scared of what might the outcome be. Truth be told, we are just scared of regrets and mistakes. We don’t want to face errors in life. All we want is to succeed. But that’s not how it is. Life is not about perfections, success, and the likes. There are also mistakes and bad things and that’s what makes life more interesting. With its imperfections, we can explore and learn more about life.

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14Four Cafe

It’s been so long that I wanted to visit this place after I watched it on TV. Those sumptuous meals shown made me crave for this. And finally, I got to visit 14Four Cafe. At last! Actually, I’ve been here two times already. The first time was when I’m with my boyfriend and the second was when I’m with my boyfriend (again), his mom, my mom, our mom’s friend, and my sister.

14 Four Tapa

This is one of their best-sellersI love how it tastes but one thing I dealt was, it’s hard to chew, not like other tapas.
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Country Fried Chicken

I’ve never tasted chicken like this before. It’s soooo good!

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Aligue and Tuyo Pasta

This is one of the dishes I wanted to try since I read many reviews that this is good. Well, to be honest, I didn’t like the pasta. (please don’t get mad at me 14Four Cafe) maybe it’s not just my type. I’m not a seafood lover. I guess I didn’t get what I expected. But my boyfriend loves it!
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Sesame Crusted Dory

If only I had the chance not to try it, I wouldn’t. I really didn’t like this. But like what I said, I’m not a fan of seafood so it’s really not my taste. And I don’t like cucumber, maybe that’s why I didn’t eat it lol. Although, my mom and her friends loved it.

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Cinnamon Bun Pancakes

Time for dessert! And yes, I loved it!
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Amaretto French Toast

Oh m gee! This has got to be my favorite of all! I love it to bits! Enough said

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And the first thing and main reason I fell in love with the café is the place itself! It’s like a hidden paradise perfect for a getaway. I’ll definitely go back here.

How to Deal with Failures

Can you still remember the last time that you were rejected? And the first time you shed your tears because you felt that nothing went right?

There will be times that we will see the darkest side of the day those days that everything bad might land in front of you; days that we’ll suck at things— and we can’t run from it. As part of becoming a worthy and successful person, you’ll have to face so many rejections, shortcomings, etc.
In short, failures.
Nothing is perfect in this world (like what I keep on saying here on my blog).
We can’t control what can or can’t, what will or won’t, and what should or should not happen.
What only we can do is to deal with that and try to surpass it. So, here are my suggestions on how to deal with failure:

  • Don’t let it bring you down. Ever!
  • Move on. There’s more to life than that. Besides, it’s only the beginning of your journey. You never know, you might be the next Bill Gates (I hope you know his story so you could relate to this lol)
  • Take time to read. Maybe try to research or know what happened
  • Don’t blame someone. (Even if it feels better, for your own sake I bet. Been there, done that!) )It’ll never make the situation better. You just make yourself worse than a monster.
  • Instead of putting others down, try to put them up! Nothing beats a helping hand.
  • Be optimistic. Always look at the bright side. It happened because something better is waiting for you.
  • Smile.

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Why would you date that person?

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Why would you date someone if you don’t have any plans on marrying that person?

What?! For fun? To forget the person who broke your heart? Or just for the sake of having a boyfriend/girlfriend? Well, if your answer either lies on the choices stated there or not, that’s opposite to marriage, then you’re just making yourself look like a fool. Why did I say that? Because it’s simply a waste of time.

You might think that I’m too harsh for saying that or I don’t have any rights to do so but, that is just my opinion. I just want to express how I feel about this matter so please don’t blame me if I’m against dating without serious intentions.

Being in a relationship is not a joke. It requires two persons who feel the same way with each other and are committed to one another. Relationship is not about fame. It’s not about the status. It’s not about running out of time or for using someone to seal the holes of your damaged heart. And most importantly, it’s not for fun!

Relationship is about commitments. It has to work for good, and by for good, it means forever. Even if forever seems impossible and unbelievable for some, still you have to. It requires marriage because it’s the best way to put God at the center of your relationship. When God is there, everything will seem perfect. So why would you marry your partner? Marry that person because you love him/her. Marry that person because he/she loves you. Marry a person you feel comfortable contented with. Marry that person because he/she is worthy of your lifetime commitment.

Relationship is about love. It’s about the story of two persons that give each other butterflies in their stomachs every time they meet like their first time. It’s about accepting what the other party have or doesn’t have. It’s about a couple who are willing to commit in each other’s arms ’til their last breaths.

In today’s generation, uso na ang lokohan. Walang seryosohan. I am not saying that all relationships are like that but I’m sure, most of the people, especially the teens today, are in a relationship that has no good intentions. And at the end of the day, they leave their hearts crying a thousand jar of tears.

Relationships should last. That’s how serious it is.

Be The Voice. Not The Echo

Someone told me to wait

But I think, I’ve waited long enough. Long enough to shatter my dreams; to break my heart.

I have a lot of questions in my head that I desperately want to answer . Am I good enough? Every time I ask this to my friends, I always get “of course you are!”. I don’t know if they’re saying it because it is true or just because they are my friends. Although it gives me lighter feeling to take me away from my darkest hours, still, a part of me is not convinced. 

Where am I good at? To be honest, this question kills me every now and then because I still don’t know the things I am good at. I’m sure that I can do something but I am not sure if I can do well in those things.

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I’ve been living behind someone’s back. I am tired of being the shadow. I want to be the voice, not the echo. I have a lot of insecurities. Maybe if I can’t get rid of my insecurities, I will be like this in my entire life.

The point of sharing this to you is to let my feelings out; to express what I can’t express to the people I see everyday. If I want to stand out in a crowd, I have to be the best of what I can be. The picture above inspired me to speak out when not heard; to be stronger in times I’m weak; and to stand up when down.

I may not have the greatest achievements today, but in time, I know it will land on my hands. I know that we are all good in different ways. I know that we have our own expertise. And I know that we can be the best among the rest. I will wait until that time comes.

What’s Happiness?

I’d almost believe that I can be happy all by myself. With no one beside me, I thought that I’m gonna be fine. Well, I can still be happy with just myself but I realized that I could be more and completely happy with other people.

To be honest, I wasn’t excited that day. I don’t know why, maybe because I still had that post-traumatic stress disorder (LOL) I had on my debut last December 12, 2012. HahahaDSC04118 2

My boyfriend and I ate at the Holy Cow! and we ordered Country’s Pride Parmesan Chicken and New York Cheese Cake. Boy it’s so good, definitely a must try.

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Lo and behold… my dream cake! *shrieks* when I saw this cake online, I was like OMG I love it! Super! I want it so bad. But the bakeshop is nowhere to found near our place. Gladly, they opened one at SM Megamall and there my hope is. Hahaha. I was really surprised when I saw him in front of our school’s gate holding a green box, that, I know what it is. I even slapped his arm a million times (okay, I know I’m over-reacting haha. Just several times) because of excitement. I can’t even shut up 😀 though I know I was hesitant to taste it at first because when my Aunt gave us a cake from the same bakeshop, it tastes like… I’ll just leave it for you to guess. Like what they said, do not judge a book by its cover. Still, I gave it a try.He gave it to me that’s why it’s so special and to my surprise (yeah another surprise) it tastes even better.

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1. Beautiful box. When we went to the mall, we passed by a stall full of Hello Kitty products, which means, everything is pink! Hahaha. And then I saw a beautiful box and I said “that box is perfect as a gift already even without something inside”.

2. Notebook. In case you haven’t noticed, I really love to write. Especially when I was little, but now, I don’t see myself writing stuffs even I want to. And he said that if I’m inspired to write something or have ideas that make me want to write, I should put it in that notebook.

3. Our picture. What more should I treasure than this? Enough said.

4. Key chain with my name. It’s kinda odd but the key chain has no story. While he was looking for the bakeshop where my dream cake could be bought, he passed by a stall of key chains that you can personalized and thought of giving me one. He finds it cute.

5. Box of Love quotes. I don’t know what would I feel, happiness or sadness. Why? Because he’s going back to LA, for good. It’s gonna be hard for us because it’s a long distance relationship but even some people don’t believe in LDR, I do. I really do, though it hurts like your heart’s being crushed everyday, as long as there’s love and trust then everything will be fine. He said if he’s in LA already and I miss him so bad, he wants me to read the quotes in the box and imagine that he’s the one saying it.

6. My new instax camera. Like what I’ve said, I wasn’t excited of my birthday. I was not expecting too much. But this is one of the reasons why I am jumping with my ears clapping. Hahaha okay I know it’s too much but that’s how I can express my feelings that time. This is my dream camera, aside from the DSLR of course. I’ve wanted this since I was a kid. And now, I have it on my hands. Thanks to my mom!

7. Headband, ribbon clip, and a sketch of myself. All of these are from my best friend, Ana. It’s so nice and sweet of her to give me these cute stuffs. She really knows what I want. For your information, I really love headbands and ribbons. But what I didn’t expect was the sketch. She showed me her drawings and asked if her drawings looked like the person itself, one of those was her sister and I said “not really” and then I saw this sketch and said “Oh this one looks like more of her” and she said “It’s not her, it’s you!” and I was like “OMG” hahaha. I really felt ashamed of what I said.

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To end this, Here are the pictures taken from my instax camera. My family and my boyfriend ♥

What makes it more special are the people who are willing to spend their time just for you.

Happiness is not about the things we receive from others or the compliments they give us. Happiness is about appreciating every little thing in the world. Those are the little things that we cannot touch but we can hold for a lifetime.