For the longest time, I thought I’m way past behind my insecurities in life goals. I left my first job because I thought, it’s making me hate myself for being stuck there when in fact, I was at the floor of my “dream job.” Now, I am here in the same field but in a different perspective which I didn’t expect I’d be in because number one, news is not my thing. I don’t care what or who I am in the company. I felt secure. I felt contented. I felt happy. I felt sure.
And as I am typing this, this is the first time in few months that I felt lost again. Being left out. Not with the people I am with now, but with life itself. Because of that one post I saw, it reminded me of how it feels like to be lost and down again. It feels like there’s a huge baggage at your back trying to push you down whenever you attempt to lift it up.
I realized, the thing about achievements is being self-fulfilled and contented with what you did, do and will do even if you think others are getting ahead of you; way faster than you do. I told myself: “know this, no matter how long it took you to get that dream, the most important thing is that you will get there.”
They say, when you start working straight from college (I mean really straight), everything will go on and on and on… and on. You will not gonna experience so many things that your college buddies who chose to take a time off first before working.
That sun-kissed tan from the beach… that DIY workshop you’ve been wanting to attend to… that “me time” somewhere while reading a good book… or those days spending for your blog. Oh man, you’re gonna miss these so bad.
When I was in college, I had the urge in my vein to work already after I stepped on that center stage. And fortunately, I was offered immediately, even before I graduate, to work in a prestigious company that everybody (okay, most) in my field dreams of.
On my first day, I was this excited girl who can’t wait to see her own desk and meet new people from a not-so-strange environment. First few weeks has gone by so fast. But the succeeding weeks, the demanding schedule and tasks followed me. I realized, what people keeps saying about working after college is true. Once you’re trapped in your chair and computer, you no longer have the time to do the things you want like before. No time excuse has become my usual line whenever I’m asked to hang out.
I’ve been in this stage where I really want to stop for a moment and… go home. Every time I tell this to people, they always advise me to take a break. It sounds easy but it’s really hard to do. Knowing that our schedule should be flexible and we’re not tied to a strict Monday to Friday, 8:00AM to 5:00PM, our work really demands us to be in the office 24/7. I am not overreacting. Literally, 24/7. And I know that. Life in Media is very demanding and most of the time, exhausting. #TheTruthAboutOurWork
Although it’s not easy for me to juggle every single day away from my family and the things I love, at the end of the day, there is something that is pulling me to stay still. My dreams. My goals.
Whenever I feel down and unmotivated, I always keep myself thinking what led me here and followed by why am I here. My dreams and goals keep me going through that tiny hole of the needle. And even if it’s really hard, I have to be strong and positive to keep going.
I have to work hard to play hard. I know it’s hard at first but eventually, everything will pay off.
No one made a difference by staying in their comfort zone.
The girl once said hi to the world,
It asked her,
Was it nice to meet me?
Of course! I’m so glad to meet you!
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At this moment, I am still stuck in a phase where my mind grasps the thought that I cannot ask the driver for a student fare anymore and that, I will now enter the so-called real world.
Few weeks ago, I was with so many people dressed in identical caps and gowns at Manila Hotel
to attend a very special event. And that day marks the end of my life at CEU.
It may be the end but I see it as a new beginning. Very cliche, I know. For us graduates, as we step at the center stage and take a bow, we welcome the new chapter of our lives. It may be thrilling because there are lots of competencies out there juggling that job interview you’ve been dreaming to have ever since and all you think is how you will ace that. Now, I am grateful to land a job in a well-known media company in the Philippines before I even graduate. Imagine, a college girl already has her job before her graduation. Lucky I am says other people because only few are given this chance but to me, it’s not just luck that I have. I have my confidence and rosary with me. That’s what keeps me achieving things I want.
Sweet and genuine. That is how the Filipinos described Pope Francis’ smile during his motorcade along the roads of Manila. Each person has his own way of showing gratefulness to the Pope in visiting the country. They wave their hands and raise it as high as they can to at least feel the presence and touch of Pope Francis.
Filipinos are very excited to witness this most awaited event. We have all been waiting for this moment to see His Holiness. As what history can remember, my age tells the last time that a Papal Visit happened in the Philippines. It was then Pope and now Saint, John Paul II.
They say that seeing the Pope is one of the greatest things that could ever happen in your life. And I agree. Although I was not able to see him personally, I feel so calm. I feel so peaceful. I feel safe. I feel so happy. Knowing that he arrived in the country safely, it is enough for me to feel that way. Truth be told, at first, I don’t believe other people who keeps on telling that they feel so light when they witness a rite which involves the highly respected Popes. But when I saw Pope Francis’s face on the window of the airplane he’s riding, my heart skipped a beat. And when he smiles as he waves to the crowd, goosebumps are covering my body. That surreal feeling is what keeps me peaceful.
And when he mentioned in his speech in Malacañang about the Typhoon Yolanda, a river of tears flashed in my memory. Reminding me the disaster that took many lives that just happened a year ago. They are the reason of today’s Papal Visit. Pope Francis came for them.
He is really the People’s Pope.We Filipinos are very blessed, grateful and beyond happy to have Pope Francis visit our country. Image Source
I was sitting in a dimmed-light auditorium yesterday. There were a lot of people inside, all of them were buzzing around. I feel pressured. I can feel the intense heat between me and them though I don’t know them personally. There’s a thing that ignites the anxiety in me and I was not sure what it is.
Maybe it’s the thought of having the same interests with them. Maybe I feel tensed because I know there’s a lot of people inside that same auditorium that are better than I. Maybe because I’m just envious because most of them know what they want to do in the future already. Well, not that I don’t know what I want to do. I was not just sure of what I will do in the future that will make me happy. Then, someone said keep doing everything until you find that certain thing that makes you happy.
It seems to help me. No, it really helps me. From the beginning, I was trying to do everything. I was trying to excel in every thing I do.
But it leads me to a fall down. I failed. Not just once but many times. I thought of giving up because I can’t handle the pain and failures anymore. It’s like, things were crashing my pride. My future. My dreams. My life. I realized, I can’t do everything. I almost gave up.
But I didn’t. I realized, there’s a lot of ways to go. That if I give up, I wouldn’t reach where I am now. I have come this far to give it all up. I learned to accept failures. Well, I have to because in that way, I can fully accept myself, too. I suffered but I grew stronger.
I must say, the person who said to keep doing everything is right. We should not stop just because we failed. We should not stop just because we think it’s not meant for us. We should strive hard to get what we really want to do because eventually, we will grasp it in our hands if we don’t stop.
Like what the 5SOS boys said in their song… don’t stop, doing what you’re doing.
How could something happen if you don’t do something to make it happen?
The moment you say I can’t, it’s the time you accept the defeat.
I’m sure that you’ve already said those two words before, maybe until now. I assume that you said it because you felt hopeless. Maybe confused. Maybe someone told you so (which is very rude). Or maybe, you felt of uncertainty.
But, should you stop there? Of course not! You are not born not to do things but to create amazing things. You are capable of anything. Even if others (or your inner self) tell you that you can’t, don’t let it rule you. Prove them wrong. Nobody can ever tell you that you can’t do anything. It is you who knows your capability. You just have to believe in yourself that you can do it.
Sometimes, the problem is not with the things or people around us. Sometimes, it’s just us. It’s our inner selves that toxic our minds. We are scared of what might the outcome be. Truth be told, we are just scared of regrets and mistakes. We don’t want to face errors in life. All we want is to succeed. But that’s not how it is. Life is not about perfections, success, and the likes. There are also mistakes and bad things and that’s what makes life more interesting. With its imperfections, we can explore and learn more about life.
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It’s been so long that I wanted to visit this place after I watched it on TV. Those sumptuous meals shown made me crave for this. And finally, I got to visit 14Four Cafe. At last! Actually, I’ve been here two times already. The first time was when I’m with my boyfriend and the second was when I’m with my boyfriend (again), his mom, my mom, our mom’s friend, and my sister.
14 Four Tapa
This is one of their best-sellers. I love how it tastes but one thing I dealt was, it’s hard to chew, not like other tapas.
Country Fried Chicken
I’ve never tasted chicken like this before. It’s soooo good!
Aligue and Tuyo Pasta
This is one of the dishes I wanted to try since I read many reviews that this is good. Well, to be honest, I didn’t like the pasta. (please don’t get mad at me 14Four Cafe) maybe it’s not just my type. I’m not a seafood lover. I guess I didn’t get what I expected. But my boyfriend loves it!
Sesame Crusted Dory
If only I had the chance not to try it, I wouldn’t. I really didn’t like this. But like what I said, I’m not a fan of seafood so it’s really not my taste. And I don’t like cucumber, maybe that’s why I didn’t eat it lol. Although, my mom and her friends loved it.
Cinnamon Bun Pancakes
Time for dessert! And yes, I loved it!
Amaretto French Toast
Oh m gee! This has got to be my favorite of all! I love it to bits! Enough said
And the first thing and main reason I fell in love with the café is the place itself! It’s like a hidden paradise perfect for a getaway. I’ll definitely go back here.